Caydence Renee

Born July 1, 2012 at 3:16pm 7lbs 5oz 20 inches long

waiting

I am supposed to check into the hospital in two and a half hours. 3am. I still havent gone to sleep. I figured I would be like this. This is a typical night. I cant sleep at a normal time. I cant wait til I can take soemthing to sleep. Its a genetic thing. I hope none of my kids deal with it. My sister jamie has problems and so does my mom and my grandma did too. I know that both Colby parents have sleep issues too. It sucks.
 Anyway. Right now im feeling like time isnt going fast enough. Im excited and super nervous to meet my new daughter! I am nervous aspen is going to wonder where i am after a day or so. i didnt finish the swaddling blanket. I could do that right now but i probably wont. I hope labor is easy and my epidural works. I got a priesthood blessing from colby tonight that everything will be good and I can be strong and the drs will know what to do and it will be good. I have high hopes. Im excited to see who the baby looks like. Im curious how the name will work out. We keep deciding on names and then it gets changed by one of us. Maybe we will feel inspired. I ate alot of food tonight in attempts to have alot of energy today and tomorrow. They usually dont let you eat incase you have to get a c section. I was so hungry last time I gave birth. Meal of choice was chick fila chicken nuggets waffle frys lemonade and coleslaw.

thoughts

This pregnancy has made me soooo tired. Maybe its because I have to somewhere everyday. I dont know but I am super tired and cant wait until the kids fall asleep to yake a nap in the middle of  day. The nap doesnt always help though. Alot of times I go in and out of sleep and still not feell well rested.
 My heartburn is horrible. I still have no water weight which is crazy!

baby shower

I had a total surprise baby shower thrown by my sisters Jamie and Sommer. my sister in laws and mother in law came. i seriously was so surprised! It was a fun small get together and I got much needed diapers and some cute outfits, kids wellness EO, books and blankets. We enjoyed the yummy food and Aspen loved the attention!

heartburn

I feel like I have the worst heartburn ever. I almost always have it and it hurts so bad. I eat an average of 15-20 tums aday trying to get rid of it.

moving along

I was on my way home from the OBs office after getting an ultra sound to check status on baby. I was turning left into my moms neighborhood and the light turned red and a guy hit my truck. Huge wave of anxiety. I  was scared for my baby, for my health and for my truck. The guy who hit me was really angry and started yelling at me that I swerved into him or something. Anyway no one got a ticket because neither of us could prove at fault. The cop had the fire department come check me out because I am almost 31 weeks along. I had good blood pressure but just an elevated pulse. He told me to go get checked by my dr which my dr told me to go to triage at the hospital if I got cramping or bleeding or didnt feel the baby moving anymore. I made sure I paid special attention to the movement and everything else with the baby. I think the little jolt woke her up. I was only going about 5 mph but ever since then she has been swimming and having a heyday inside. Im almost positive I saw a foot pushing this morning. When I had my ultrasound I found out the baby is down like ready to come out but she is transverse which means facing sideways...hmmm when have I heard that before? Good thing I am having a c-section.

what a day!

Yesterday i went to my dr to get an ultrasound to see how the baby is progressing. They thought at my last check up she was measuring a little small and wanted everything to be checked out just to make sure. Although I did wait in the office longer than I wanted to because the tech was way behind and it just kept making me more nervous the ultra sound was fine. She is measuring on the 44% for her gestation age right on target and her head is a week ahead of the rest which means she will have a nice cute big head like aspen and dad. Im excited to see who see looks like because her ultrasound didnt really look like Aspen and I was for sure they would be looking alot alike. Right now she is measuring 3lbs 7 ounces.

almost 31 weeks

Im getting anxious! I feel so unprepared. I need to get more baby swaddling blankets. I need my house organized. I need to buy more groceries. i need more movies for Aspen to watch and toys to play with all day.
I had a check up two days ago. The NP told me I am measuring small so in about an hour Ill be getting an ultra sound to check everything out. Im a little nervous because I want everything to go perfect. I also have an undying fear that Im going to deliver early and my girls will be freakishly close in age. I had some really bad lower back cramping this morning so I did the dishes incase someone had to come over and take care of me or something. Like I said I really need to get my house organized. It just hurts so bad to bend over! We just moved last month into a new place so its kind of working its self out when we need things but the money is always short flowing and Colby works so hard. I love him.

Ice

This is something so wierd about pregnancy. Craving Ice. I was tested and I am not anemic but I want to eat ice all day long. I actually look forward to it like its ice cream or something. Its getting really hot outside and it makes it even more refreshing. Sometimes at night when im in bed I think about getting up and eating some.

grapefruit

I would almost count on it if I was having any more girls I would crave grapefruit EVERY SINGLE TIME. Aspen I went crazy with anything sour grapefruit. This pregnancy I eat and drink grapfruit like water. Last night I remembered how amazing these sour grapefruit snow cones are at Bahama Bucks and couldn't sleep! Im serious. So Delicious. mmmm.

3rd trimester

Im finally in the 3rd trimester and Im kinda nervous! I am finally getting back some of my energy! I actually went shopping for fabric yesterday to make curtains for the living room, something like that I only dream about because I am too tired. maybe ill get to make some receiving blankets and bibs which I need so desperately. Right now i weigh 145.5 So I am finally gaining some weight and I am getting more hungry more often. Also I really feel the belly stretching these days. Even though I weigh less it seems like Im bigger this time around. Some of the clothes I wore last time I was pregnant till the very end dont really fit me this time. Also the heartburn never ends. I wake up with it and go to sleep with it. I eat tums like candy it helps for a little bit. I did find a new baby blessing dress. I feel like each girl should get thier own so that if they have a girl they can use it too. Im super in love with this one because it has a few sparkles on it as well. Colby and I have really gone back and forth on a baby name. Colby is very picky and doesnt want anything but the best and pretty and unique. Hopefully this one sticks!

just another day

sometimes I still feel like I just have the flu and Im not pregnant. Its hard for me to imagine functioning or managing two kids at one time for the rest of my life! We have been in transition from moving from queen creek house to the in laws til we found a rental which we move into next weekend! Im so excited to decorate a little girls room for two girls! Super excited. I have decided what I should really do about the sleeping arrangements. I almost want to buy another crib so they both have their own bed. But I know for the first few months she will be sleeping next to me anyway probably in the pack and play. I never thought it would be so hard not to want to buy matching clothes for these girls. Im going to refrain as much as possible unless its for pictures or something.

I am however so tired all the time. I could sleep 10 hours and I have enough iron and no thyrod issue but I seriously tired all the time!

My favorite food right now is toast with avacado and cucumbers sprinkled with garlic salt mmmm. also always want a krispy kreme doughnut.

kicking

this cute little girl finally started moving around a bit more. I was a little worried because I had heard that you usually feel your 2nd baby sooner since you know what to expect. This isnt the case for me. It might be because I have more weight on this time Im not sure. But anyway, She was moving alot last night. It is funny because this early in my pregnancy almost 22 weeks I can see my tummy move alot than I can actually feel it. Aspen was a mean kicker and I felt it nonstop. This girl must still be kneeling like in her ultra sound, so her feet arent facing my tummy but the insides.

this pregnancy I am craving a little more junk food than before. I still eat alot of grapefruit and vegtables. I cant get enough Avacados. I eat one almost every day. Also lots of juice. But I cant get enough chocolate. Mostly twix and Kitkats. But I cant even indulge very much because it makes me soooo tired so fast.

Its a sister... Im mean GIRL!

Last thursday we got to see an awesome ultra sound and find out we are having another girl. I am super excited. She had all her fingers and toes a cute butt and a happy heart rate of 149. I have to admit I already ordered matching picture outfits and more bows than Colby can handle. Im glad all of Aspens cute baby stuff gets to get used again, not that this girl will only get hand me downs, she gets new fun stuff herself! Maybe even a babyshower!

18wks

Im 18weeks already. I feel very tired all the time. I think I also get dehydrated really quickly since I get headaches really easy. I talked to the nurse practitioner about taking sudphed everyday for my allergies. We decided that is just what I am going to have to do so I dont end up in the hospital with horrible migranes I cant control or function properly. I have a never ending guilt that I hope nothing bad happens because I am taking it everyday. I also lost a pound when I weighed in at the drs office. I told her I had been really sick. Well more than my first trimester. I started taking morning sickness medicine before bed each night. It does seem to help but I am really tired when I wake up. Also usually at like 3 or 4 in the morning I wake up wanting to have a feast of food. Almost like Im not pregnant just really hungry.

heartbeat

last week I got to hear babies heartbeat then 3 days later got to see baby on an ultra sound. 158 strong. I think its a girl more everyday. We have no girl names to agree on. We get to find out gender of feb 16th even though ill be like 21 weeks along thats the first time they could get me in in the afternoon with colby there. I still get sick in the mornings and get dizzy really easy. My energy hasnt really come back. But I havent really gained any weight even though I feel like my clothes dont fit me properly. today i stood on my moms scale at 136lbs. I have the worst heartburn ever! its started way earlier this time.